Change

Why are we humans so reluctant to allow each other to change? I sent an email today to someone that Adam knew growing up. I sent it because this person had expertise in an area and I had a question, but the exact reason I sent the email isn't my point. He was very kind in his reply, and I think in an effort to compliment me he made a few comments on how he couldn't believe Adam ended up with someone like me. Now, on the one hand I appreciate the fact that people seem to have a good opinion of me and think that I'm a worthwhile person. However, this is not the first time that someone has in all seriousness said something like this to me. A member of his own family has even made a similar comment before, and to tell you the truth I find it very frustrating. I didn't know Adam 10 years ago. I have heard wasn't the most agreeable teenager. The thing is, I really don't care too much about the person Adam was as a teenager. I didn't marry Adam the teenager. I married the 25 year old Adam. The Adam that I see every day is very kind and loving. He is working the hardest that he ever has in his entire life so that he will be qualified to get a good job to support our family. He is incredibly patient with me when I have anxiety and freak out about things (which people who don't live with me may not know I do). In fact, he is just incredibly patient. He isn't perfect, but he is doing his best for me and for our future family. That's the Adam I see every day. Why do some of the people who knew him 10 years ago refuse to see the Adam that is now, and insist on the one that was back then? Wouldn't they rather know the much improved version of this wonderful man?

Laid Off

The economy really is bad. Do you know how I know this? Adam got laid off yesterday along with like half of his little company. For us this isn't good, but we must admit that in many way we are the lucky ones. I am the major bread winner right now. Adam was only working 10 hours a week. Which did help our little student size budget. It really did. In fact we were only spending his student loan money for his school expenses and his health insurance. This made me very proud of us. Now, I guess we'll have to spend a small amount of that little loan. Not the end of the world, but I guess I have been humbled. It made me appreciate what Adam told me yesterday, "Who I really feel bad for were the guys who had been doing this full time for 20+ years. Screen-printing is all they know. How will they support their families?" And so mostly I am just grateful that it wasn't a devastating blow for us. Just a little reality check. As I listened to Adam yesterday as he offered the little prayer that we pray together every night, I was reminded why I married this guy. He wasn't worried about us but did pray for his co-workers. They are the ones that really need the blessings right about now...